It feels like I'm starting to lose my emotions gradually...Anger, fear, happiness,everything feels so...dead. I'm starting to drift towards a state of apathy and I just don't seem to be able to enjoy these emotions as much as I did a few years ago. It's painful.Terribly. To know that I'll be unable feel anything at a certain point of time makes it just so painful to endure the journey there. I wish I knew what to do or how to feel about anything or anyone. I've been living my life trying to emulate those emotions to try and just...be human. It feels so fake, being a liar to everyone because I have no true self to show anyone. Just a mask...Or is the mask my true self? I don't know anymore...and I've been thinking too much about this for the past decade or so. Being human is...hard.