its always like i know have a certain problem and i keep trying to change myself to fix it, but it never seems to happen. people keep telling me that i'm arrogant, boastful, and somewhat irritating. it never changes. i still stay the same. yet the same people will also say i'm kind, helpful, cold, uncaring. i have started to feel less anger, pain, happiness, hatred, so much so that it feels frustrating. i just dont know anymore. i think depression is setting in. i always had a low self esteem, i hate looking at reflections of myself, looking at the imperfection. slowly lacking the will to do stuff anymore. you know sometimes everything seems alright on thee surface but that's just it, everything is going wrong on the inside. and by the time you realise it, it's too late