Somehow, I keep wishing i knew how people were feeling about me, like if i did something wrong or pissed them off, or if someone liked me but I didn't realise it until it was too late. People keep telling me that I cant sense the mood and I guess they are right. I am one socially and emotionally inept person with nothing going for me at this moment. I guess life could be worse... I could be unemployed, balding, senile and a virgin. Anyway, I also wonder how many people would cry if I disappeared one day without a word, probably could count them on one hand. Perhaps I should try that and risk losing my friendship them XD. Then i'd probably know the answer to my previous question.


Black Star
One of unparalleled brilliance, deeper and darker than that of the night sky but yet, sparkling with utmost radiance that would melt the coldest ice. If anyone were to look into this marvel, it shows a reflection of one's deepest and darkest fears akin to the darkness of the night. Did you know, on the other side of a black hole, there exists a black star?

(I don't even know why I'm writing any of this. Ask my random and incoherent brain why it thinks of stuff like this)

Another day in my life. Another presentation to do. Another pile of work on my table. I have never felt so much boredom and mundane simplicity in any other time of my life. Being called to hendon camp just to waste an entire day in commando camp when I might not even get in. I heard, the vocational assessment was just a farce, it did not mean anything at all. My thoughts are being incoherent, my speech inarticulate, probably due to too much spray painting and using glue >.<. Going to sign some work papers later to start working as a temp staff with 7 per hour at HSA. Somehow, I hope that i'll have enough time for my stuff after school ends tomorrow, but I doubt I will. I'm supposed to be working on my report now so gotta go. Cya